Random Babbling

Life

Life throws things at you like it won’t hurt you.

Like it doesn’t care. There is so much I want to do in life, but I feel like

Someone of invisibility is pulling me back, restraining me. As if they do not

want me to carry on with my life, as if they do not want me to leave.

I just want to break free. Why can’t I break free?

What is it that is holding me back. When clearly, nothing should be.  

There are times I wish we had that big, red Easy button to push.

(Source: flamingxpie)

Another life

This week has been not only a place of pandemonium at work,
but quite honestly hell.

Possibly because I am still dragging, tired and wore out from the weekend being in Michigan and such. Though it was stupendous and I thoroughly enjoyed the amazing people in which I conversed and spent time with.

However, I feel myself slowly disliking my job everyday. It’s not the childrens’ fault, I love all of my dear little preschoolers with all my heart.

It’s my co-workers who make me dislike my job and quite frankly make my job difficult. Most days I wish I worked with a bunch of immature men than a bunch of gossiping, doltish women.

As I dislike the people whom I work with more and more, I find myself wanting out, wanting another life and wishing I was in another state photographing the beauty that nature beholds.

Though I realize that at this particular time in my life I cannot do so, I know that within the next few years I will.

So for the time being I suppose I have to be patient for that to happen and somehow, some way, not make rude remarks to my absurd co-workers.

This is my neice.

I’m going to be an Auntie. <3

My little Riah Skye I cannot wait till you are welcomed into this world. <3

The trio.

Otherwise known as The Terrible Three.

<3

Julie Andrews (submitted by filthyypout)

(Source: quote-book)

Stuck

This past week has been not only a blur but a very slow, emotional week.

I’m not quite sure what’s going on, I haven’t exactly been able to pinpoint why

every emotion in existence has ran through my veins uncontrolablly.

Needless to say I am stuck. This isn’t suppose to happen, I’ve been thrown

curveballs and I don’t particularly care for them. It makes life much too difficult.

What to do, what to do?

Caramel popcorn yummy in my tummy!! (Taken with instagram)

Ummmm…I don’t think those are the names.. (Taken with instagram)

See it to believe it

There are little things in life that truly make me appreciate what I have and have had over my 21 years of living.
I guess physically being at a shelter for the homeless and seeing with my own eyes what it’s like made it truly sink in.
Though I have heard of the homeless shelters and people going in and out of them and such, I had yet to step foot into one.

Well tonight, I did and it’s an eye-opener.

I guarantee you won’t believe me until you see for yourself.

While cooking and preparing the food for these less fortunate men, woman and children I was thinking to myself, “what if I were in the one on the other side?” “what if I was one of the less fortunate and had to go through what they are going through?”

To tell you the truth, I couldn’t even fathom it. I could not for the life of me, picture it in my head no matter how hard I tried. I can’t even tell you how many questions ran through my mind.

Then, while cleaning up a little and waiting on some stragglers coming through, this cute little girl about the age of 8 or so walks to the kitchen door.
She looks at my sister and her friend, both ages 16, and asks in the sweetest voice “Can you come color with me?” The girls looked at each other and momma said go and color with her.
When the girls smiled answering yes and started walking towards her, the little girl jumped up and down with excitement and shouted “yay!” Her smile was bigger than you can imagine.

My hand flew over my mouth after awwing out loud. It shocked me really, how excited this little girl had gotten over the girls going to color with her. Almost as if she didn’t have anyone to play with ever, which honestly, she probably did not have.
Tears came to my eyes and I looked at momma and she too was crying.

The things these people have to face everyday and what they go through must be hard. I can try to imagine it, as can you, but we will never know what it’s truly like unless we are in their shoes.

It is the little things in life such as the little girl that can bring a smile to your face and warm your heart.

Are you thankful and appreciative for what you have? Think about it.